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Yay.

Have I mentioned lately how much I love doing massage? It’s almost as if days off and workdays aren’t so different anymore, because I thoroughly enjoy what I’m doing.

For the record, if you ever find yourself wondering if it’s worth the risk and effort to train and prepare and risk everything to do something you think you might love to do, it absolutely is. You can quote me on that.

Anyway. This whole seismic shift in my life is having a strange impact on my emotions. Just now, I was watching Queer Eye. They were making over this dad who had adopted half a dozen kids or so, all from different ethnic backgrounds. One of the kids was saying how he and Dad are always saying that they love each other. And the kids were so sweet, and the wife was so supportive… I just started to weep.

I don’t know. I feel good. I feel alive. I’m just not used to feeling this much. It’s like I’ve been in prison all these years, and I am finally myself for the first time ever.

So, yay.

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boadiccea
May. 4th, 2006 11:06 am (UTC)
*cries for joy for you*

Yay! I'm so glad...
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:01 pm (UTC)
Thank you! *hugs you fiercely*
mercurialgirl
May. 4th, 2006 11:16 am (UTC)
It’s like I’ve been in prison all these years, and I am finally myself for the first time ever.

You have been. I'm so glad you feel good and alive -- yay indeed! You've earned it, you deserved it anyway, and your happiness has such a wonderful ripple effect.

I keep thinking of the end of Shawshank Redemption, with the blue sky and the beach and the Hope and the Happy.

*Love you!*
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:03 pm (UTC)
*smooch*

You know I've never watched the Shawshank Redemption decause I'd heard it was really depressing. Huh.

Love you, too!
forestdweller
May. 4th, 2006 11:25 am (UTC)
You have me thinking, and wondering...

I'm on a cusp of change myself. Thank you for the inspiration.
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:03 pm (UTC)
You're quite welcome. Remember that fortune really does favor the bold!
peregrin8
May. 4th, 2006 11:43 am (UTC)
ohhh! [big happy sigh]

That is splendid. I'm so glad for you!!!
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:03 pm (UTC)
Thank you! Hope that ankle is feeling better.
cyntergomes
May. 4th, 2006 11:53 am (UTC)
Hurray!!!!
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:05 pm (UTC)
:)
minniethemoocha
May. 4th, 2006 11:58 am (UTC)
Oh, yes, yes, yes!

Me next. Me next.

Oh eep. Oh help.


Love you!
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:05 pm (UTC)
You can do it! *hugsmooch*

Love you, too.
nixieq
May. 4th, 2006 12:04 pm (UTC)
yay indeed! no prisons for the fenriss wolf, nosireebob. this is so nice to see. >:D
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:05 pm (UTC)
thanks, sweetie!
_blackjack_
May. 4th, 2006 12:15 pm (UTC)
"But the work waits, I'm alive at last, and I'm full of JOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOY!"
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:06 pm (UTC)
Hee. 'cept I'm not cutting my clients' throats.
rednikki
May. 4th, 2006 01:08 pm (UTC)
It’s almost as if days off and workdays aren’t so different anymore, because I thoroughly enjoy what I’m doing.

Yes! That's it exactly! Of course, for me, lately, there hadn't BEEN any days off - and part of that was because I liked what I was doing so much I took on more than I should have. I had to force myself to take this vacation.

I don’t know. I feel good. I feel alive. I’m just not used to feeling this much. It’s like I’ve been in prison all these years, and I am finally myself for the first time ever.

Yes! That's exactly how it feels. And believe me, other people will notice. It's been strange in LA, because, to put it bluntly, I'm the fat, plain chick (esp. in LA, with all the actress/model/waitresses). And yet...I get hit on ALL the TIME. And then I came back to Boston, and people I would cheerfully have broken my neck to date when I lived here are telling me how attractive I am. I haven't changed all that much on the outside, so I have to believe it has something to do with what's inside.

Er, not that having other people find you sexually attractive is the goal of doing something you love. But I do think it's an indicator of an inner happiness, when people seem to find you irresistible.

Not that you ever weren't irresistible. ;-)

What are your days off? I would like to call you.
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:08 pm (UTC)
Yep. Nothing sexier than happiness and confidence.

Well, it's Wednesday and Thursday, but I'm a little hard to catch today. I don't think I have any clients tomorrow until 3 PM, and you caould certainly call me any time after 8PM. I'd love to hear your voice, my love.
pastor_saturn
May. 4th, 2006 02:52 pm (UTC)
Wow, I am so happy and warm-fuzzy for you! :) *jumps up and down*
fenriss
May. 4th, 2006 05:09 pm (UTC)
Woohoo! *hug*
rikibeth
May. 4th, 2006 05:13 pm (UTC)
For the record, if you ever find yourself wondering if it’s worth the risk and effort to train and prepare and risk everything to do something you think you might love to do, it absolutely is. You can quote me on that.

Hear, hear, says the pastry chef!
topaz720
May. 4th, 2006 07:29 pm (UTC)
That's really it though...isn't it? To find something that you love doing *so* much that the work days and non-work days are just as enjoyable! I used to feel that way when I played theater, thinking in the back of my head "I can't believe they are paying for this! I'd do it for free!"

'Course, that doesn't get the bills paid!

Teaching hasn't brought me quite the same satisfaction level as performing did, but it is still up there. Sharing what I love with these kids gets me so excited sometimes...even they laugh at me!

All about finding your passion!
eac
May. 5th, 2006 09:31 am (UTC)
Meant to reply to this yesterday -- *hug*
rimrender
May. 8th, 2006 11:25 am (UTC)
Buy the ticket, Take the ride, & Live happy.

You know you may have found your niche when they have to tell you to go home.
parchmentheart
May. 31st, 2006 03:33 pm (UTC)
question- what school did you go to? I have a friend who wants to complete her training, but is running into issues. Maybe she needs a better school?
fenriss
May. 31st, 2006 03:58 pm (UTC)
I went to Potomac Massage Training Institute. I loved it. It was an amazing experience. There were certainly times where things came up (let's face it... MTs aren't the most organized or grounded group of folks all the time) but overall, I couldn't be happier wiht my choice. And havening PMTI on my massage resumee is what got me my wonderful job, because it's the most respected school in the DC area.
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