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Workload = huge. And the Directory cycle has already begun again. And my group has now taken on a side project that will be tedious and long, and I doubt the actual benefit of it.

And I am so very far from prepared for the Cert. Jebus, the breadth of the material is huge! I need to know everything from the hormones of the anterior pituitary to the causes of Cushing's Disease to the tax forms general contractors have to file to which emotion is associated with the element of wood in Chinese medicine to blah, blah, blah ad nauseum.

See, as I study, I get engaged in the subject material. How am I supposed to absorb it if I don't? I wonder why thyroxine has 4 iodine atoms, and triiodothyronine only has 3, and by the time I'm done looking that up online, and reading over the relevant paragraphs until I can really grasp the concrete reality of it, I realize it's 11 PM, and I'm not even halfway done with my work on the endocrine system.

At this rate, I'll never get enough review on a fraction of the material to pass the stupid test. And that's the bitch of it. This exam punishes you for intellectual curiosity. For plumbing the depths of your subjects, rather than madly skimming over pages and pages of crap that will never have any baring on your career as a massage therapist! *headdesk*


I am dying to do something creative or visual. I long to play with photoshop, or linger over the creation of a colorful meal, or sew something, which I haven't done in nearly a year. But there's work, and when there isn't work, there's study. Or if I am past the point where I can concentrate anymore, there is sleep, and anxious dreams.

It'll be over in 15 days. But until then, I'm grinding my teeth to nubs.

Oh. Good Imbolc to thems as cares. And Happy Groundhog Day to thems as don't. Look, here's a candle for the occasion. I'll be more pleasant in a coupla weeks, promise.


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Feb. 2nd, 2006 05:39 pm (UTC)
Hey, got your letter. I'm determined - once this meeting I'm going to tomorrow is over - to write you a reply on paper.

As for the certification exam, I think you'll do well. Really. *hug*
Feb. 2nd, 2006 05:42 pm (UTC)
Skim now...read later
I know you'll do great...it's just hard to get into that "student head-space" after 40 hours a week at a day job.

Yay groundhogs! I mean, they'll eat your face off if you give them half a chance, but they (generally) mean well.
Feb. 2nd, 2006 06:31 pm (UTC)
I love you dearly, but one of my "Things I wish Fenriss would do" is that you don't give yourself enough me/down time. Play a video game, sew, draw, rearrange the cats, learn how to juggle clubs, anything to focus you on something else. Usually right after or right before studying. Hell, just 30 min a day is great to do something unproductive is actually productive. You get to not stress for a bit and let the sub-conscious reorder the things you have on your plate.

Gods know you do so much for everyone else.
Feb. 2nd, 2006 06:34 pm (UTC)
I'm totally pulling for you and I think you are fantastic.
Feb. 2nd, 2006 06:56 pm (UTC)

and some cute
Feb. 2nd, 2006 08:40 pm (UTC)
I have a similar problem reading Herodotus. I'll come across some reference he makes to some obscure weird custom of the Scythians or something, and I end up spending a half hour researching to find out if there is any corroboration for his version.
Feb. 3rd, 2006 06:20 am (UTC)
...and a good 50% of the time, there isn't...
Feb. 3rd, 2006 07:40 am (UTC)
Well, yeah, but in his defense, it's not like HE had any refernece books to check.
Feb. 2nd, 2006 09:26 pm (UTC)
You will do fine.

So let it be written, so let it be done.

Feb. 3rd, 2006 01:42 am (UTC)

Memorize, regurgitate, find time later in life to appreciate.

Oh yeah, breathe, it's good for you.
Feb. 3rd, 2006 02:03 am (UTC)

Snuggle your flourite, pretty girl, and remember how spicy your brain is -- I can't have any idea how hard it is to actually slog through this for the next two weeks, but you will, because you're smart and talented and you're working really really hard.

Vanessa and I both send mammoth waves of warm fuzzies your way, and continue to be at your disposal in any way you need. You kick butt, and you can do this.
Feb. 3rd, 2006 06:21 am (UTC)
Good luck, sweetie. I know you will do great.
Feb. 4th, 2006 03:45 am (UTC)
Re: Groundhog Day
Something my Dad sent me the other day that might cheer you up a bit...

This year, both Groundhog Day and the State of the Union Address fell
on the same day. As Air America Radio pointed out, "It is an ironic
juxtaposition: one involves a meaningless ritual in which we look to a
creature of little intelligence for prognostication, and the other
involves a groundhog."
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